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It really sucks when you finally lose your drive to do anything .___. But hell, I'm still trying. Just like when i was trying to graduate High School, i need to kick myself in the butt again to get moving but this time to get back into school. I have a lot I want to accomplish in my life but it feels like I'm stuck in a rut, (<-- that the saying?) can honestly say that I've never felt this lost in my life before. (this a midlife crisis? Lawl if it is, though i doubt it. Then again what do i know? x_x)
It also feels like i always get left behind and it takes me forever to catch up; takes forever, but at least i do, right? And then when i finally do catch up i find out that I'm back to square one when i see how much people have already done in that time. No matter how hard i try, i know in the back of my head that I'll always end up last in everything. I'll always be left behind and sooner or later, forgotten..but oh well. Just gotta get up and work harder, if not, just start from scratch again.
I really do hope I can get myself straightened out. I'm tired of always feeling alone, drives me insane. I always feel like giving up and telling people 'You win, I'll do whatever the hell you want.', 'You're right I'm wrong.', and blah blah blah- but in the end that stupid annoying little glimmer of hope/optimism living in my fantasy world always comes back and punches me square in the face as a wake-up call. Augh, god, why you make me feel crazy??
It also feels like i always get left behind and it takes me forever to catch up; takes forever, but at least i do, right? And then when i finally do catch up i find out that I'm back to square one when i see how much people have already done in that time. No matter how hard i try, i know in the back of my head that I'll always end up last in everything. I'll always be left behind and sooner or later, forgotten..but oh well. Just gotta get up and work harder, if not, just start from scratch again.
I really do hope I can get myself straightened out. I'm tired of always feeling alone, drives me insane. I always feel like giving up and telling people 'You win, I'll do whatever the hell you want.', 'You're right I'm wrong.', and blah blah blah- but in the end that stupid annoying little glimmer of hope/optimism living in my fantasy world always comes back and punches me square in the face as a wake-up call. Augh, god, why you make me feel crazy??
Fresh Start
Holy effin ass crackers it has been forever since I've been on here.....WELL THEN maybe that might change! No one reads these things but meh, I shall write this still FOR MAHSELF cause I am moving the hell on with my life! Also, I wanted to see a journal of motivation not depression on my profile lawlz....So all this is to me. I went through shit, lost some very close people to me, fell into a pit, but you know what? FuCk ThIs! I am done with it! Shit happens, I can't change that no matter how much I want to, no matter how much I beat myself over it- It. Has. Been. Done. I am moving on. I got into college (HUGE STEP), I'm meeting new people (
New Yeeaaar~!
Whoa shig, year came and went in a blink of an eye o.0;; Meaning a whole new start!!..kinda XD
Hopefully this year will be a helluva a lot better. With me getting into school, finding a job, and simply just getting up and running again....that goes for physically as well x]
And if i do get into a school, i can't wait. I never denied it in the first place; i knew i was going to miss it >< Plus, i don't wanna get dumber than what i am already and i want the social life in that back >>
But enough with that, i think I'm getting out of my Drawers Block (writer's block is still ongoing Dx) cause lately i've been getting the urge to start drawin
Um
Yeeeaah, got nothin to say....>>
Stress..
Like the title says, i'm going through lots of shit right now, but i'm still trying to keep my chin up!
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just do it!! XD